Why I Paint

This website is filled with paintings I’ve created, so it would be logical to assume that I paint because I want to create art.

But that’s not the real reason.

What’s important to me is the experience.  While painting I get to be purely creative – no preconceived ideas, no limits on what to try, just freedom to explore and see what shows up on the canvas. I can turn off the analytical, critical part of my mind and simply play. This can be, quite frankly, a ton of fun! And it’s exhilarating when all goes well.

Only you can count on not all of it going well.

Creativity isn’t just getting a cool idea and then making it. The real creative process includes tackling challenges, getting frustrated, making mistakes, and hanging in during the “this looks horrible” phase (even when it lasts and lasts and lasts…). Like most things, the hard parts are where you learn the most.

What I’ve learned from my paintings is that if you let go of expectations, stay present, and follow the whispers of your intuition and curiosity, eventually every painting comes together. And each time, the final result feels like a totally cool surprise.

Sounds good, doesn’t it? At least in theory.

What I’ve just described is my ideal process, but it didn’t always work. When I started painting like this, I would constantly freeze up over some part of the painting that I liked and didn’t want to cover up. I would lose the go with the flow mindset and get stuck.

My solution was to take photos, capturing each stage of the painting as it evolved. Having a record made it much easier to relax about what got painted over.

Then, I wound up with a hard drive full of photos, to go along with my studio full of paintings. For me, the point of these paintings isn’t just the final result you see, but also the story of how it got there.

If you are reading this, I think you, like me, are interested in the process of creativity. 

You are interested in the journey. You want to see more than just the final product. You want to see the process with all the mess and mistakes left in, and hear about the emotional highs and lows that come with it.

Although I am mostly describing the process of making paintings, creativity isn’t just about art. We are all creating our own lives every day – looking at where we are, taking actions, noticing what does and doesn’t work well, selecting what we do and don’t want around us. Hopefully over time we can keep what works, transform our mistakes and wrong directions into something better, and keep moving forward in satisfying lives.

We all learn from watching others. I would love it if the stories about my art can be a dose of encouragement to keep showing up – for whatever you need to do in your life – and feel okay about not being perfect as you find your way through.